I never have. But I do try to reflect and challenge myself. One year my goal was to grow carrots, one year it was to read a book that scared me. I’m not sure what my goals are for this year yet, but I’ve had a week of positive steps.
Firstly, I’ve finally organised my work. I’m quite impulsive when it comes to submitting stuff, which has led to a few silly mistakes. I’m also a bit rubbish at record keeping, and have a habit of ending up with many, many duplicate drafts. I suppose it’s just in case I decide the highly charged emotion spillage of the first draft is actually better than the rationally crafted fifth one.It’s not. But it’s cool to see the progression.
Anyway, at last I have organised,categorised and deleted the superfluous. Hopefully it’ll make the submission process simpler, so I don’t spend most of my “up” time looking for a piece to submit, and can spend more time actually writing.
The second positive thing this week has been to begin some long-awaited therapy. I shan’t go into too much detail, not everyone is comfortable with such things, but essentially the work is going to help me change destructive patterns of behaviour, so rather than going down the same negative road of thoughts, I’ll have tools to help me behave differently. The prospect is immensely freeing. I’m hopeful my writing will benefit, as well as the immeasurable improvement to my day-to-day life. It’s not directly linked to M.E., and sorting my head won’t remove the physical symptoms, but I hope that in future my energy will be spent on more than just keeping myself together.
So there we have it, positive steps and positive thoughts. What a happy post
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