Ah, it had to happen. I’ve had such a good run since Christmas, but this week has brought the familiar warning signs, swollen glands, vibrations in my limbs (always a weird one), a body that seems to have forgotten quite how to move, and a brain that’s slowly shutting down, to the point of only being able to tolerate QVC.I know these signs, and I know the balance needs to be redressed.
Knowing this, I shouldn’t have visited my mom and dad on Thursday afternoon,(bacon sandwich and looking through old books, nice,but not too taxing), and I certainly shouldn’t have gone out for dinner on Friday.
Or should I? Feeling loved, laughing, chatting about nothing and everything are things that I miss a great deal. My main communication is through online messaging, which is great, but I know a lot of folk are busy, and it’s hard not to wonder if they do a little sigh when my avatar pops up. Reconnecting in person really is good for my heart,soul,my spirit. It gets me through the lonely days.
I’m feeling a bit sorry for myself. Well, mostly just frustrated at this silly half life I live. Having said that, I am lying here watching birds from my window,and catkins becoming bright and plump. I have a lot of thinking time, and do still make notes. These vary in coherence, but still give me some material to work with . The days when I can’t write feel wasted, but taking time to heal a little will mean I am able to write again soon. And I really did have a lovely time on Friday.
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Kathryn is a writer based in Shropshire. She writes short fiction, flash fiction and poetry. She has no formal education in creative writing but she reads every poetry book she can get her hands on, and enjoys various online writing groups and courses.
Kathryn has M.E., which brings its own challenges to her working practice, and means she has to monitor her activity with great care. Despite the frustration of these limitations she has reached her goal of having work published, thanks to support from Nine Arches Press Dynamo mentoring scheme.
Kathryn has work published or forthcoming in print magazines like Mslexia, Popshot Quarterly and The Dawntreader and online in places like Words for the Wild, Nine Muses Poetry, Sledgehammer and Riggwelter Press. She was longlisted for the 2019 Fish prize for short fiction, and Paper Swans Press single poem prize in 2020.
Kathryn is a columnist for Spelt Magazine, and has recently been awarded a micro bursary from Raven Studios in Shrewsbury to work on a new pamphlet. She also accepts private commissions under the moniker Poems from the Hare.
When her health allows, Kathryn works as a freelance copywriter and can write confidently across a range of subjects, including travel, food, literature, hospitality and customer service. In addition to these core topics, excellent research skills means she can tackle subjects as diverse as muscle cars and dog training. She takes on proofreading and editing work as requested. You can find out more at her business site
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Kathryn loves language and its persuasive power. Most of all she loves to write.
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I am sorry to hear you are feeling this way. As for whether you should have gone out on Friday, I would say most definitely. The difference between having gone and not having gone, is that your half-life becomes a no-life. Now, in my eyes, that would have been far worse than having to give yourself some time to recuperate. You now have lovely memories to look back on, which I would imagine go some way to relieving the pain of QVC! I do hope you feel better soon. I look forward to reading your next creative writing publication. On that note, I will share with you a moment this week when you came to mind. I am currently reading 44 Scotland Street, by Alexander McCall Smith. Have you read The No 1 Ladies’ Detective Agency? The way he writes made me think of you. I have the same love for your writing style. There is something very similar about the way you both write. It hooks me in and involves me in whatever it is I am reading. If you have read his books and you don’t like them, then please accept my apology for what in my mind was most certainly a compliment.
Big hugs to get well soon xxx
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Oh what a lovely thing to say Marie. I’m flattered that you thought that, and feel lovely that you thought of me. It spurs me to write more 😁
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Hi, Kathryn. So sorry you are not on top form. As Marie says, it was a good think to go out as you can now add the experience to your memories and it may even spark an idea for a story. Take care.
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Thank you Carole, and well done for your assignment feedback!
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Friday was time spent recharging your emotional batteries x
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It was! Thank you for describing it so perfectly 😊
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